Our Christmas Tree

Much to my delight, Elliot is soooo "into" all things Christmas... Santa, stockings, twinkly lights, and OUR TREE!  We didn't have one last year because he was a crazy toddler and too much into things in a not-so-good way, but this year is perfect.  We went to the nursery up the street and picked one out, he helped me hang our ornaments (I hung the glass ones on top and he hung all of the nonbreakable ones on the bottom), and he loves waking up in the morning and seeing the lights go on.  It melts a Mumma's heart.

Photo credit for tree pic goes to Elliot!

And for a walk down memory lane... two years ago... click here.

Concentration

Disregard the dirty, snotty face... Elliot's had his fair share of colds since starting school.  It's the concentration on his face that caught my attention in these pictures.  It's this level of concentration and focus that is a double edged sword for us right now.  It's amazing that Elliot has such strong interests and focus on things in his world.  He's really stinking smart because of it!  But having such an intense level of concentration on everything also makes it really difficult for him to just relax.  


School is still  difficult, though we think his separation anxiety is easing up a bit.  He still asks ALL OF THE TIME where his Mamas are (whether we are sitting right there with him or not), or where we are going, or if it's a school day or not.  And he still asks his teachers ALL DAY LONG where his Mamas are.  Did I mention he has an intense level of concentration??  Yeah.  But we know he's not crying during the day at school.  And we are also getting some reports of his interactions with the other children.  But it's basically that he just doesn't relax into his day.  He's hyper-focused on things in his world, both in a good way... and in a challenging way.

It's so interesting to still be learning new things about this little guy two and a half years later, not to mention thinking about him for a lifetime!  We didn't at all expect this school anxiety situation, nor do we know how it will play out in the long run.  But, whether it's in a good way or a challenging way, I am so grateful to be along for the ride!

Night Terrors and Waffles

School transitions have continued to be H.A.R.D.  Elliot just does not like to separate.  Mornings are full of great big sobs, loud heartbreaking screams, and lots of begging for me to either stay with him or take him home.  He really, really likes it better when he is home with both of his mummas.  And he is so smart and thoughtful that even when we are at home he talks mostly about either going away to school or mummas going away to work.  He talks about and thinks about separation almost all of the time.  It breaks my heart to think that he is so stressed out.  It does help a lot that we love his teachers and that we know he settles into his days at school pretty well, but clearly he is a changed child now that we have introduced this concept of separation from his familiar world.  

And then he had another night terror.  It has been a year or so since his last one.  And it is absolutely terrifying, not to mention exhausting.  He woke up in the middle of the night in a freaked out rage, with eyes that looked more goat-like than human-like, and he yelled and screamed and hit and kicked and demanded waffles.  Yes, waffles.  The last time he demanded food in the middle of his night terror, too.  But this time we had just been talking about waffles in the evening before bed, so that idea was still on the tip of his consciousness.  It all made perfect sense and no sense at the same time.  

Luckily, the next day was a stay-at-home day.  One that was very, very clingy.  And very slow and sleepy.  One that involved going to the store first thing in the morning for a waffle maker and making big platefuls of fluffy homemade whole wheat waffles.  With lots of maple syrup.  We spent the morning filling our bellies and calming our minds.  We spent a long day just being together.  This mumma tried to take a big, deep breath and wrap her little one up with as much love and strength as I could.  Knowing all along that the next day was another school day, but that on this day we got to stay home together and eat waffles.  

'Cool Days

A few weeks ago Elliot transitioned from home-care with Kelly to group-care in the childcare center at my work.  To help ease this transition (maybe more for me, than for him), I made Elliot a new nap blanket (he picked out the robot fleece and the matching blue backing himself!) and a little backpack to carry his things in each day.  It felt really good to sew these mumma-made things to help us talk about school in the few days leading up to his first day, and it felt even better to say goodbye to him each morning knowing that he would literally be wrapped up in my love during his day.  Even with these extra things, the transition was/is still very hard.  The tears have lessened (both his and mine), and he's more willing to separate from me and go to the comfort of his teachers each morning.  But it is so very, very clear that Elliot loves his "stay at home days" way more than he likes his " 'cool days."  And, quite honestly, so do I.

Hoppy Halloween

With a wriggly nose, one quick hop, and couple of sweet bunny bites, this Chocolate Bunny is here to wish you a wonderful HOPPPY halloween!

A Very Splendid September

Somehow, someway, September is gone.  I know most of you are probably stuck on the idea that it's the month of October that is nearing its end, but I'm still back on September.  

See, September is my birthday month.  The month when I am showered with love and feel the most thrilled to be me.  The month when I was lucky enough to get a visit from my dad (Elliot loves his baseball-playing Papa), a weekend trip to Portland (oh, PDX... how you've got a hold on our hearts), a deepening appreciation of the Boise landscape (the color contrasts here are really awesome), and the gift of a trip to Indiana to visit some of my favorites (lots of love was given and received).  Holy moly, that's a lot of awesomeness in one month!

September also marks the first month since November of 2009 that I haven't posted to Mixed Baby Greens.  This blog started as such a lifesaver for me, at a time when I thought my very bumpy entrance into motherhood was going to get the best of me.  Blogging, and reading other crafty mom blogs, gave me an incredible gift... the ability to feel grateful for and connected to every minute that I was lucky enough to spend with Elliot.  Seriously, every minute is so amazing.  There is a photo op around every corner, a learning moment constantly at my finger tips, and an opportunity to be grateful for how lucky I am day after day after day.  Don't get me wrong... it's really, really stinkin' hard!  But, as hard as it is, I feel so lucky to be a mother.  And I love that this blog has helped me focus on all of that love and chronicle Elliot's early childhood.  

So, although most of you are getting ready to say goodbye to October, I'm working really hard to say goodbye to a very splendid September.  Sniff, sniff.  September, I loved you.  Too cheesy?  Ok, maybe  a little.  How about this.... I'll leave you with a recommitment to blogging, a quote that speaks deeply to my soul (thanks, Emily!), and a handful of pics that show just how splendid September really was.  

"The moment a child is born, the mother is also born.  She never existed before.  The woman existed, but the mother, never.  A mother is something absolutely new."  -Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh

A Trip To The Fair

Ask Elliot what he got to do at the fair this year and he'll tell you, "A maaaan give you a baaalll, and you throwwww it in a waaater!" And, sure enough, it's true.  A carny gave Elliot a little ping pong ball for free to try throwing into his slowly spinning pool of water.  A ploy to get a child hooked so that the parents feel compelled to pay.  But, alas, Elliot is only two, he does not have very good aim (though he did make it into the water!), and we were able to distract him with something else once the ball was out of his hand.  But while the carny might not have made any money off of us, clearly the memory was worth a million for Elliot. 

Keep asking and he might also tell you that he got to pet "a baaaaby goaaaat."  (He has a way of drawing out his words for emphasis.)  And, that, he did.

As for other fair highlights that he's not so quick to recall... he flipped when he saw the big ice cream cones in the sky, he ate his way through one heck of a cob of corn, and he rode his first ride--twice.  Yep.  It was a good year at the fair.

Amazing Alazar

Hi there!  Popping in with a different kind of post this time.  I'm going to take a minute to introduce you to a very special person in my life.... Amazing Alazar!





Alazar is this super smart, super aware, super kind, super funny, super awesome kid who I know from Portland.  He's a really good friend of mine and he and Elliot absolutely love each other!  While I could go on and on about all of the things that make Alazar so awesome, what I really want to focus on is his dedication to helping stop HIV.  That's right.  He's a kid who isn't afraid to talk about HIV, isn't afraid to teach people (of all ages!) things about HIV, and isn't afraid to work his tail off in all sorts of ways to help stop HIV.  One of the things he's doing is raising a lot of money for the AIDS Walk Portland fundraiser that helps to support people living with HIV and provides HIV prevention programs.  I asked him if I could interview him on my blog so that he could spread the word about his frundraising and message raising compaign.  I want to let as many people as possible know about his efforts so that they can support him in any way possible (read his blog, donate money, talk about HIV with the children and adults in their lives, etc).  So, here it goes...

First of all, Alazar, tell me 3 things about yourself so that readers get to know a little about you.

1. I like people.  I get along with most everyone no matter their age, race, religion, sex, orientation, etc.
2. I like to have fun, from playing with my iPhone to going outside and playing with a ball!3. I like art, from sculptures to painting to stamping.  It's all fun!  


Now, tell me about AIDS Walk and why it's so important.
The AIDS walk is so important because me and my Dad both have relationships with Cascade AIDS Project [who puts on the walk and is one of the major HIV service organizations in Portland].  It's important to raise money to help people in our community.  It's fun being a leader and leading a team.  This year I'm trying to get "famous" people to walk with us.  I don't know if that's going to work, but I am trying.  HIV isn't going away anytime soon and it's growing 7 times faster in the black community than the white.  It is totally preventable if people would just be more aware of their behaviors. 

What does CAP do with the money that is raised by AIDS Walk?

CAP takes the money that is raised and gives it back to the community through the many programs they have, including housing, teaching about HIV, emergency care, family support, etc.   CAP's mission is:   "To prevent HIV infections, support and empower people affected and infected by HIV/AIDS, and eliminate HIV/AIDS-related stigma."

I heard that this year you are working really hard on fund-raising, but you're working even harder on message-raising. What's the main message you hope people learn from you?

The main message I want to send is that by doing the right things, you won't get HIV.  It's totally preventable.  What I've learned is that most people don't want to talk about HIV, especially with an 11 year old.  My Dad says adults don't talk about it with themselves, and they feel uncomfortable talking with a kid like me.  HIV is growing 7 times faster in the black community than the white.  I want people to get help, to get tested sooner, to have safe behaviors and to talk about HIV.  

How can people get more information about HIV, learn more about you, and donate to your AIDS Walk team?

1.  People can learn more about HIV from our primary source, which is Cascade AIDS Project at: www.cascadeaids.org
2.  People can also learn about HIV at the bottom of my blog at: www.ateamfund.wordpress.com
They can also read and learn about me on this page!  From my page, you can click on "Sign up to help the A-Team this year"   and the click on "Donate at the official AIDS Walk Team Page"  and it takes you right to the A-Teams donation page.  I hope people will sign up to walk with me, as well as donate to my campaign!
3.  Another place to look for information about HIV is: www.cdc.gov/hiv/resources.factsheets


See what I mean?  Amazing, right?! Yep, that Alazar.  He never ceases to amaze me.  So, readers.  You heard him...  take a look at his blog, sign up to walk with him (if you're in Portland), donate to AIDS walk, and talk about HIV.  Get it? Got it?  Good!

PS--Alazar, you did a really good job on this interview.  xo
PPS--Update:  apparently Alazar got Angela Bassett to donate to the walk and comment on his blog.  Um, ALAZAR! You are sooooo amazing!!!

From Start To Finish

Homemade black bean quinoa burgers and roasted potatoes from our farm share.  In the end, they didn't look pretty but they sure were tasty.  And Elliot is, by far, the best kitchen helper ever.  

Finally...

After months and months of talking about it,  I finally made grilled pizzas.  And they were awesome! Here's the menu:And here's the deliciousness:One trick I found was to grill one side of the plain dough first, take it off and build the pizza toppings on that grilled side, then put it back on the grill to cook the ungrilled dough side (now on the bottom) and get the top all melty soft and warm (the other option is to grill both sides of the plain dough first, build your toppings on, and then put it back on the grill to cook the toppings... I thought this overcooked the dough and like the one-side-at-a-time method).  The bits of bubbled, charred dough were absolutely delicious.  It was as closed to wood fired as we can get making it at home.  Crunchy crust on the outside and chewy dough on the inside. Oh my.  Seriously, so good.  

Then and Now

Just 6 months between Elliot's first visit to the dentist (top picture) and this week's visit (bottom picture).  In just those few months he's gone from a little baby faced squishy to a long and lean boy.  It truly blows my mind.

A Summer Bunting

Envelopes filled with location, hours, and admission for a variety of fun summer adventures hung for Kelly and Elliot to enjoy the summer months together.  Fun, fun, fun!

Water Can Baby

Our oh-so-beautiful best friend, Meguire, and her lovely Mr. Walsh came for a very special visit.  See... Meguire and  Ryan are expecting their fist baby this coming November AND it was Meguire's birthday while they were here!  A besty, a baby belly and a birthday, all rolled into one.  Oh heaven!  There was lots of playing (both adults and child), some guy bonding time over one of Elliot's favorite movies, and lots of wonderful cake.  It was a perfect and very special weekend.  We can't wait to meet this special little babe, whom Elliot has lovingly named Water Can Baby.  Little Water Can Baby, you have wonderful parents and are surrounded by many who love you dearly.  Safe journey.  We'll see you soon.